Life, Shane and the Persuit of Happiness

It's what's on my mind, and yours too. Well, at least that bit about happiness...

Wednesday, April 24, 2002

 
Static in my head all around me. That's how I grew up. I don't know what it is, but as soon as I start getting something clear and logical in my head I can feel it creep in. It covers my brain and penetrates, soaking in to fill every crack. I can't regain control but just spin my wheels; no control. I feel like at some point there was something pure, and tangible, that I let go of, or lost. Something innocent and honest. There's no honesty anymore. I swear I'll be honest until I die.
At some definate point in time there was something that I passed by or disregarded which has led to my current state of being. It was something critical that I should have paid attention to. So many years have gone by since that I'll probably never know what it was. It's like I fell asleep and found a dream, which comprises my life now, and never woke up from it. Can I ever? Not now, not ever...
posted by Shane  # 8:06 PM
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